Sunday, Sept. 28, 2003 - 9:45 PM
September 2003:
Staring at this white box with the black cursing flashing...thinking...hmmm...why is this so hard?? It is extremely difficult for me to express my feelings to those I love so IMAGINE how hard it is to sit here and try to "web-ify". I have to take each and every word I take into consideration and think about it before I send it off. It is really hard.
I have been struggling a lot lately. My pain level has been extremely high lately and I guess I just haven't been dealing with it very well. I have been getting angry easily and that isn't my nature so imagine everyone's SURPRISE when suddenly my normally sunshine-y demeanor isn't so sunny. If I talk to anyone and I am NOT my happy self, that person is LIKE what is WRONG...why are you MAD?? Gee...I don't know?? Probably because I can not breathe, can't move without pain, have constant headaches, oh, the list is endless..should I go on?? I know..I know...I should be grateful for the things I DO have...but some days I just have trouble...although this week the priest did come and give me annointing of the sick so it nice to be able to receive that sacrament.
Every October I try to read A Story of A Soul which is the autobiography of St. Therese. She is a saint that I think a lot of us can really relate to. I really recommend that you try to read it if you have the time.
Please continue to pray for me and for my family. We keep you in our prayers as well. I firmly believe that prayer is the greatest gift we can give to one another. Also, SMILE at one another. A simple smile can truly brighten up someone's day :)
Until next month....
Gentle hugs,
Shelley
